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breathless and tired
again i feel like crying
i am lost
went to church today,but i was having trouble feeling god's existence
Lord please listen to my prayers
please
i feel like someone is taking away my courage of living
i am so tired
i want to cry but i have no chance
because i dont want anyone to see me crying here
if you are listening, please give me courage to be strong again
deep down my heart i know what's the reason of me being so emo
i can't help but keep hurting myself like that
i am so sorry to myself
Lord, i don't know is this a challenge for me and why you are doing this to me
i just hope that you can give me direction on what should i do
it's terrible to feel lost...