5/10/2013

我是个很没有毅力的人
是个很差很差的人
已经沦落到很想哭，可是却哭不出的阶段
每天睡前都告诉自己，放弃吧，不可能的
起床，又再燃起希望，无谓的希望
好像把心掏出来，扔在一旁，从此就做个没心没肺的人
这样我也不用这么难受
好难呼吸，像是快死了那样
好痛苦
可是却没有一个可以倾述的对象
我好失败
好失败
想当个机器人，没有感情，没有眼泪

19/7/2013

it's been a long time since i last visited here
here is always the place where i write whatever craps when im emo
i thought i can leave this place,but the fact is,i cant
this is the only place i can release all my sadness,all my emo-ness
not to anyone,but to a blog
sounds pathetic,huh
mayb it's time to change this place to private,though i dnt think anyone will come and read it

recently emo always visit me at night
suddenly become quiet and refuse to talk
i dnt know what happened to me
just...dont think anyone will understand my feelings
that's true,i never talk to anyone about my feelings,how would there be ppl who understand
im such an idiot
there's a high wall built around my heart
block everyone to get in
too afraid to be harmed once again

im a coward
but,what can i do
the more i talk to him,i may really fall in love with him
he will never have the same feeling
what for letting my heart to be sad
told my friend dont give up
but i chose to give up at the first place
i chose to stand at side,just admiring him

how long has it been since i started to wear a smiling mask when im facing ppl
i want to be truly happy
i thought im truly happy already...
but when emo and darkness overwhelm me at night
i just wan to cry
i start to deny myself
i start to hate myself
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

心累了
害怕了
失望了
放弃了
绝望了
心...死了
对人与人之间的感情，不论友情，还是爱情
都不想抱任何希望了
这样的人生
到底继续下去有什么意义
真想一睡，长眠

arh......jay's concert........

啊.............

我要去看周董.........

唉...........................

400多啊....

开始明白为什么女生要找有钱的男朋友了

那样至少有人请去看演唱会呐

周董啊周董

为什么您的演唱会一次比一次贵

上次没机会去

这次又...

唉..........

伤心.......

射手座对最亲最爱的人容易暴走脾气，特别不好；对外人从来和善，常被说人好；貌似对话过程中不知不觉就会强加灌输自己的想法给别人；射手座爱睡觉，常常迟到、健忘，对大多数人和事不上心，无视“路人”，不在意周围；射手座忽冷忽热会有冷淡期，让朋友有些受不了。

射手,好朋友很多,桃花运很好…可是真正脆弱的时候却喜欢躲着自己疗伤,痛了伤了却也笑着说无所谓…可以很洒脱很随意,却又固执地在乎一些事情…看透很多事,却喜欢装傻…可以和任何人玩暧昧,却等待着真正了解自己,能够依靠的人…射手很简单也很聪明,很吵闹也很安静,不孤独却也最孤独。

射手座的人天性乐观、热情如火，总是有用不完的精力，让人觉得好像同时有好多分身一样，充满活力的笑脸以及灵活的双眼，正是射手座最大的魅力，不过有活力可不见得要剪个男生头，像野孩子一样，但射手也不适合披头散发，绑个辫子或是扎起长长的马尾。
射手性格活泼开朗，爱自由，有梦醒的星座，最害怕唠叨，是一个绝对要拥有自己的个人空间的星座。

射手属于一个很有正义感，对周围的不公会抱有不忿的心，是个爱好和平的人。不过射手是个比较随意，很不修边幅，做起事来就一定会丢三漏四的。有点懵懂，有点庸碌，所以很难看到射手认真有魅力的一面。

i seldom love the cover of a song more than the original one...
but this one is really nice!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chsTuBmkB2w

Little Things covered by Sam Tsui & Kurt Schneider

In love with Sam Tsui's voice <3

assignments
i shall eliminate u
one
by
one

inorganic chem-killed
next, foundation pharm.
CVS
Physical chem

ending = EOS

then i will have my holidaysssssssssss
woohoo!
motivation : holidays!